I heard at the weekend that an internet friend killed herself. We were both members of a small, friendly forum, and I was on her jokes/Christmas card list. She was a nice woman, never a cross word… it was a real shock.
I don’t know why it happened… possibly it was bad news about her health; it was a bit early in her life for her to come down with anything seriously disabling. Or possibly she just lost all hope.
It knocked me off balance so much I didn’t want to talk, blog or email anyone, didn’t even tell Mum… though I answered the small group we used to be a part of. It really brings it home to you, how someone can be struggling so much and nobody is aware of it, and how you think someone will be there tomorrow, next week, next year, and the next five, ten, twenty years come to that… but boom, they’re gone.
She’s still got a small site on the web… came out the same year mine did (mine has since been dismantled). Contemporary sites! Similar average skill levels in setting them up, similar topics. It’s terrible visiting a site like that, feeling as though you could just send her a message… but you would never get a reply.